Its that proson inside of me thats gone the proson i love is gone i wont her back that is why i am so mest up i am empty that prson that love eveyone and eveything the one that wanted the family to gether has given up and donesed care about anything. i care just anuf not to hurt my kids but in the long run i am what a fuck up i am a selfish bitch everyone else happyness hurts me to.
I AM SO SORRY

happy

I need to be happy i am sick of this being unhappy what am i to do.If i make myself happy EVERYONE else will be mad at me and i will loss a lot of family but i am not even sure that is what i want i am always doing that thinking i want something but in the end i don't. I need help i need i Barack to no what to do were to go from here. This cant be life if it is i hate it and would rather be died.

when

when is to much. to me to much was 2 or 3 months ago is the eg ever going to come because i cant take anymore but we have no chooses in life and i am sick of it will i guess we have some chooses it just to later that u see them. i hate my fucking life and i cant do fuck all about it fuck the world and everyone in it. i am trying one more thing to nite and if it don't work i am done.