Will the day come when i know what i want? And not hate that i am not prefect. I keep looking to the next day and saying that it will be ok tomorrow and it never comes, making up reason for why i feel this way and saying i was never this bad. I dont even remember anymore who and what i am or was.
This is the only place i can say that i am not here in my mind i dint eisit. Its like i keep asking for help and it never comes what can anyone do, i know its got to be me that fixes it but i don't no what it is that need to be fixed.
Running into corners
Down the corridors of time
In search of happiness
Sorrow was found
All alone bruised and battered
Broken hearts smashed and shattered
She love the dreams in which she doesn't wake
To forget the needles and agony
In dreams she embraces the sunshine
Awoken she dreads the light of day
She tries to hide it
But the sadness remains in her eyes
Nobody sees it, nobody tries
But day to day it's killing her inside
She holds her head up high
With her friends, she's all smiles and laughter
When she is all alone at night
She cries herself to sleep
Despite the valley of tears
She cannot feel any better
Like the lonely winter tree
With outstretched branches with never any leaves
She is but a lonely soul with lonely smiles
Looking away trying to hide
Her outstretched teary eyes
Down the corridors of time
In search of happiness
Sorrow was found
All alone bruised and battered
Broken hearts smashed and shattered
She love the dreams in which she doesn't wake
To forget the needles and agony
In dreams she embraces the sunshine
Awoken she dreads the light of day
She tries to hide it
But the sadness remains in her eyes
Nobody sees it, nobody tries
But day to day it's killing her inside
She holds her head up high
With her friends, she's all smiles and laughter
When she is all alone at night
She cries herself to sleep
Despite the valley of tears
She cannot feel any better
Like the lonely winter tree
With outstretched branches with never any leaves
She is but a lonely soul with lonely smiles
Looking away trying to hide
Her outstretched teary eyes
I found this it ant mine but it fites me this is me
Hi Time
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like your having a really tough go at life.
As you commented on another blog, about my comment... Im not all ways so joyful and life is not allways blissful...An old love of mine once said "in this life we get coffee breaks, we had better enjoy them for they go by fast" Meaning life usually only gives you moments of joy and contentment, the rest of it is a struggle. Like you I have to work at a joyful life, put my mind and energy into it, the results are not allways what I had hoped for but like "coffee" breaks I do once in awhile get moments of blissfulness. Im a middle aged women life for me is probably easier then for you, seeing as how you are a young mother of two, a wife and surrounded by smelly cats. I too have been there, a young mom I mean and did not always get the support I felt I needed.
You can not reley on others to bring you a sence of peace and that feeling of existance, not even your husband nor mother, not any one but you. Remember that people are imperfect and will give you imperfect results, only you can bring your own peace and self worth. Aslo resting in the fact that the creator made you with a purpose of existance. I'm not saying that you shouldnt have a support sytem in place, you should, and take advantage of it when its offerd. You may even have to ask for it some times, but if its not given, then you need to draw on your own strength, and that of a higher nature, for only is "He" perfect with results that give you sence of self and self worth.
until next time...Time
Hello again...
ReplyDeleteI just realized that your comment was directed to the blog in which you were actively on, I apologize for being presumptuous. Although with all that said, the same principles apply to the above comment I left with you. My prayers are with you, as you walk this path.
I tried to go to your blog directly from the internet, and your blog did not show, nor was there a message from Blog Spot to indicate why, just thought you might want to know that your blog cannot be seen.
Thank you I am having one of thows days so i dont no what to say. But it meany somthink when someone eles know what you are going throw and is not saying that you should be happy.
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