Its that proson inside of me thats gone the proson i love is gone i wont her back that is why i am so mest up i am empty that prson that love eveyone and eveything the one that wanted the family to gether has given up and donesed care about anything. i care just anuf not to hurt my kids but in the long run i am what a fuck up i am a selfish bitch everyone else happyness hurts me to.
I AM SO SORRY

happy

I need to be happy i am sick of this being unhappy what am i to do.If i make myself happy EVERYONE else will be mad at me and i will loss a lot of family but i am not even sure that is what i want i am always doing that thinking i want something but in the end i don't. I need help i need i Barack to no what to do were to go from here. This cant be life if it is i hate it and would rather be died.

when

when is to much. to me to much was 2 or 3 months ago is the eg ever going to come because i cant take anymore but we have no chooses in life and i am sick of it will i guess we have some chooses it just to later that u see them. i hate my fucking life and i cant do fuck all about it fuck the world and everyone in it. i am trying one more thing to nite and if it don't work i am done.

ansers

Everyone has let me down including myself. Tomorrow is the day we find out what is happening i don't think its going to be good i am mad and scared Scott has broth to much to this marriage and i cant take anymore i am no better for him because of all this i am shitting on him I CANT FUCKING TAKE ANYMORE. His fucking kid his fucking X it wouldn't be so hard if he would do it the eze way well the eze way for me FUCK i am done. I hate this life i hate this world I hate fucking Evey thing fucking people are so fucking dum including me fuck em fuck them all i don't care that my husband is hurting cuz i am to i am sick of helping him thought it i need the help thought it i need help ....................... Evey fucking day i have something new to worry about i want my old life back i want to be somewhere were it doest hurt anymore i need to stop feeling used why do it feel bad for thing i shouldn't? why do i not feel bad for thing i should? There is something about Men that fuck me up i have gilt or something i just want to be me NO questions asked why is that sash a problem?

sunshine

I am happier that the sun is out. I think i found out why i think money is so important [cuz it is] No my mom and dad always gave us money when we were sad intruble if anything bad were to happen we got money, it fixes everything right? well got to go get the kid from school.

Ok bye

I think this maybe my problem My husband and my family. I am sick of having to remember EVERYTHING the baby crys What DO U do? You need to go to the store and the money is in the saving WHAT DO U do? Wheres my bank card I don't no where did u put it? On top of it I have to do everything for the kids and when i ask him to do it how do i do this how do i do this what should i feed them like fuck do u what me to take a shit for you. O and then i say this to him in a nice way and i get the well you do this and you do this every time i say anything Time to grow up fuck head. I ant prefect but fuck I could do better with the kids but do you need to fix yourself be for you fix everyone else. i think i am going to leave him then i only have to do it part time. if not i am running away.

Well

What else can go wrong I thought i was doing pretty good at staying happy. Now the stroller got stolon and are Bran new tent we just bot. I am more pissed at the stroller I cant afford a new one so what am i going to take the kids to school in on top of it i cant even go to get food for the house. I am going to be a low class person for the rest of my life there is no point i am going to be no well fair when i am 60 cuz i cant save money for my retirement so on top of being old i am going to have to suffer with money i should just kill my self now, so i can remember the good time i had cuz there ant going to be anymore this life ant wroth it. Is there any point to trying :( If anyone one has info on what i can do with my kids please leave a message I just don't have anymore fight in me